And I've updated quite a bit so that's the new location.
All old blogs have been transferred over there as well.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:39 PM
Long story short: ErOneH8zDerek via Twitter no longer exist.
Wasn't really no reason to delete the account, just allowed some shit to force me to press that delete account button. So when folks heard about me closing the account, it was met with criticism and come back because we'll miss you replies. (read: yeah right)
So I decided to take a page from the homie Jamil by way of Nas and just destroy and rebuild.
New Twitter name: Mo_Rease (Read it slowly...Mo Rease..Maurice.. Get it.. Got it.. Good.)
That's all for now.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 5:45 AM
1. the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations. 2. faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc. 3. an example or instance of faithfulness, adherence, or the like: a man with fierce loyalties.
Who are you loyal to? Those that show loyalty towards you? Or are you selective with whom that is given to?
Throughout life, it seems as if that our loyalties can be tested in so many ways. Like if a person shows that they can be shady in some ways, would you still have their back when the chips are down? Or what if you were in a bind, would those so called friends still be the same ones that hold you down in a bind?
My problem is that I hold too many loyalties. Like it could be times that I needed some help but the ones that "said they would help" were nowhere to be found. But if they needed something, I would be right there.
I guess I should limited my loyalites those that deserve it. It's really a select few and they know who they are.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 3:40 PM
For the past couple of weeks, I've gone through a what some would say a down phase. What I can say is that, things are somewhat better but that light at the end of the tunnel is far away. Some days I just want to break down and just scream to release this built up tension but I can't bring myself to do it. Then the person that I need to talk to is being distant, so there lies another issue.
People offer their ears to listen, but right now I can't discuss what's going on. I will eventually and I just have to brace myself to endure what comes of it. I don't regret the things that I've done, because they were meant to happen. Hey that's the way life goes.
Some people will look at me and say nice things about my character. I'm modest about it because I just find myself to average. If I could right those wrongs, then maybe things would be different. *exhales* I want to say more but I can't.. Well the person that this is directed towards knows how I feel.
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I'm on the outside knocking
Hoping that you'll hear me calling
And that you'll allow your heart to stop blocking
I'm working extra hard or not trying hard enough
One minute you give me access, then the next I'm restricted
Past pains cause your emotions to remain tough
Late night those dreams starts to play and I drift off into space
Hoping that I get a chance to hold you close
Waking up greeting you with morning kisses on your face
Tossing and turning in my imaginary vision
Your arms reaching out and I'm coming for your embrace
As I reach you, the dream stops and you disappear
No replays - just thoughts of what I want to be
But reality is staring at me saying she isn't going nowhere
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:08 AM
Time for me to break free from my shackles and face my past
Watch those demons perish and bad memories shatter like glass
They wonder why I keep my life a secret
Because for 9 months inside my moms belly she kept my life a secret
Doctor's visit confirmed what she already knew
March 4th came and I was a week overdue
So a newborn child, Moms was 21 and didn't know what to do
So for years, we were on the move
Different houses in East Baltimore, her pride heavy so she had so much to prove
Bullied and pushed around during my youth
I inherited a bad attitude just look at my father for proof
Tried to reach out for a relationship and each time it failed
So on that note, I swallowed my pride and bailed
I knew writing this wouldn't be easy
Because talking about myself would have me looking lost like C. Breezy
No bowtie but I cry tears of a clown
Reading this will have you thinking of Lauryn singing All Falls Down
Kept to myself because I was afraid to share all of myself
So this week's events prompted me to take these feelings off the shelf
Writing this eased the pain and made me feel less less in orbit
So here's a middle finger to past and a new strength to keep moving forward
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:13 PM
Her words crushed my soul with a right hook
With every word she spoke, left my brain feeling shook
This won't have a happy ending so if you can't handle it, try not to look
So hard to keep the chapters closed when your life's an open book
The pain inflicted cut me open and the wound started to bleed
Had to face what I was running from so a reality check was in need
All she wanted was honesty and I kept something that didn't feel right
Hurt her even more that she had to be the one to bring it to light
So now I lost the part of her that needed most -- trust
With this out in the open, I hope what's left of what we have don't blow away like dust
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 7:35 AM
Once again we meet and as usual, you blame me for the reason that you feel the way you do. I understand that heart and mind may disagree, but it's up to you to get them on the same level. Meaning that you need to get them both playing on the same team if you truly want to be happy.
I know there are relationships that begin and end daily. Most of those individuals are just as lost as you are. They too need to get things together within themselves. But enough about them, let's focus back on you. I'm going to get to the bottom of why you and I butt heads over the years.
First of all, you find yourself attracted to those that do more harm than good. The ones that wouldn't throw water on you of your soul was on fire. The ones that spit a good game but their style states otherwise. I gave you opportunities with those that mattered. Those that were there for you through good and bad. You let them get away. All they wanted was your love. You gave them that and then things went sour.
So instead of blaming me, you need to check yourself. Trying to advance but you can't steal second with your foot on first. Yeah that was a Budden line, but it applies to you. Stop looking for the worst and appreciate what you have from the start. Allowing your insecurities to get the best of you, will have you alone in the long run. Young fool will turn into old fool.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 2:54 AM
I really don't feel like typing this but I'm going to get this out of the way:
If you've been under a rock, Kanye West and Lil Mama both made headlines on Sunday. Kanye interrupted Taylor Swift to say that Beyonce had one of the hottest videos in the decade. Lil Mama crashed Jay-Z and Alicia Keys' performance of Empire State Of Mind. Both acts have been roasted via Twitter. I'm just asking for it to stop because.. it's been old fast.
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:26 AM
So this is the new schedule:
Work: Mon, Wed, & Fri
School: Tues & Thurs
Sat & Sun: ???
The picture is clear, no HD.
So after 3 classes(1 professor was absent and my other class is tomorrow), I think this semester will be decent. Hopefully I will be able to keep focus(who knew that learning about Human Resources could be boring?)
But again, I'm humbled at this opportunity so I'll make the most of it.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:57 AM
"... And it starts" - Lupe Fiasco
You know they say when you see signs, you shouldn't ignore them. Well the writing's on the wall and I'm heeding that advice.
But anyway good people, it's been a minute since I last posted something meaningful here. *exhales* But life goes on. Today's the first day of school and as usual, I'm unprepared. I don't have my books (I'll get them on Thursday) but it's good to have your family there to support you through these times.
I am ready to face this challenge and just hope that I land clearly when the smoke clears. I look at how I've done things and granted while I could've made adjustments, this road traveled must be the one that I'm destined to take.
One thing I would like to accomplish this semester, is trying to be more engaging towards others. I know for a few that's reading this, it's going to be a shocker because how I'm just the type to play the background. Well orientation kind of opened up things a little bit. But I just need to get out of this shell.
Well I may be updating through out the day so keep your eyes opened..Ha yeah right.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:01 AM
Most that know me that I'm not most socialable type of person, but if something is given to me, I'm appreciative of the gesture. I don't like to bother anyone about something because some have that tendency of holding it over your head later. But what I'm really trying to say is thank you to everyone that has played their role in regards to my life. Whether it was tough love, encouragement, reality checks, it is well appreciated. Even those that have a lot going on, I give thanks too. You show that when the chips are down, you rise to the occasion and do what is needed to be done.
This next phase that I'm ready to enter, I hope that I still get that support from you. And know that when you need it from me, it's a given. We are all stars.
Most importantly, thanks should be given to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. We often take for granted the opportunites that were made for us, but we as people should look to him and say thank you. I know that probably will turn some people off but whatever.
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Mary J. Blige has a song called Take Me As I Am. The singer from Houston had a song called Flaws And All. Well it seems when it comes to our imperfections, some people tend to overlook theirs and are quick to point out others. Like they were created in the image of Jesus himself. None of us are. As much as we try not to, we tend to judge each other on things that we can or can't control. I know I'm not perfect as I have scars, bumps and other things on me as well. Some just tend to think that they are just the world's gift. Things can change in an instant or it could be passed down to your next generation. So if you can't accept me for who I am, then move the fuck on. No need for you to be around me if I don't fit what society deems as "correct". If I can accept you for your stutter and your wandering eye, then you should be able to do the same for me. Then it just annoys me that those have way more imperfections should be more grateful instead of tearing others down. But whatever, it will be the same ol superficial, egotisitc people that some of you are.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 3:03 PM
Yesterday, I had to walk away from it all.
We had built something strong in the beginning.
Then this unraveled and started to fall.
Mostly I'm to blame for lack of communication.
We ended up on opposite sides of the fence.
Like strangers walking past headed in the opposite direction.
Kept it all in perspective, you were making your own moves.
Feeling kind of bugged that it came to a halt this way.
Wanted to keep trying, vying for your attention.
The more that I spoke, the more I started to lose my say.
So I'm ending this while it's still fresh in my mind.
Hurts deep that the friendship had to suffer at the end of the day.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 4:58 PM
Well once again we have come to a crossroads in our paths. The heart and mind constantly disagree on which way to follow you. They both have the best interests but they tend to view you in a different light. The heart is loyal and will stay down through thick and thin. The mind wants to analyze the situation and do what needs to be done in order to protect the heart. So they battle constantly until one slips and allows the counterparts to gain the upper hand.
So where does that leave you? Day in and night out, you have so many relationships beginning and ending. You've been widely appreciated and knowingly abused. You've been kept a secret and overly commercialized. February 14th should be everyday since you take no days off. But what about those that can't seem to reach you? They want to experience that trait you have to offer. Maybe their time hasn't came yet.
So many times I've tried to avoid you. But it seems like you placed someone else there. Tried to play things off but you used the trickery to reel me right back in. Like a fiend, I took the drug. Let the high consume my soul. What is the secret to finding success with you? Lord knows that I don't want to end up older in age still searching for that answer.
Then I turned to music for guidance. Danity Kane trusted you and now you're poetry to them. Seems like those words will touch your soul. Duffy dealt with you and was left crying at Warwick Avenue. Mary J. Blige made many songs about the joys and pain you gave her. Carl Thomas was left emotional. So much pain funneled to the word through music. They do say that pain can bring joy. Mariah once thanked God for finding you.Tamia couldn't get enough of you. Luther, Barry, and countless others have rejoiced in the way that you made them proud.
So it would seem as if we had a lengthy history. Not strangers but not really familiar either. Tried to take chances but ended up avoiding those boundaries. As much as I try to distance myself, we manage to cross paths.
So how do we begin this next chapter?
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If anyone reads this and is confused by the title, then just read along for clarification.
So originally, I was supposed to had headed out of town but at the last minute I just decided that fuck it, I'll stay home this weekend. So I went to the barbershop and had some laughs. After that, I was just going to go home but I wanted to stop at Best Buy. But ended up walking down Canton (South Baltimore). They really built that place up over the years. Hotels, restaurants, waterfront properties, etc.
So I headed to the Landmark Theaters and I see two of my old managers that I worked @ Muvico with. So I got to see a free movie. But I had like an hour or so to kill so I walked around one of the hotels and sat on the benches and just had a moment to just think. I took some photos as well. (It's the camera whore inside of me lol). Then I realized how close Best Buy was so I went there and I brought The Wackness, Low Down Dirty Shame and I'm Gonna Get You Sucka.
So I head back to the movies to see:
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:34 PM
Tear stained face, makeup laced lens
This was one of many prophetic signs
She looked in my face and started to speak
Voice cracking like she ready to deliver a speech in crucial times
She diverted her attention to a small charm
The one that I place around her after the first date
Who would've known years later that this relationship would flip
Love made us enemies and slowly turned to hate
She sat on the bed with many pillows
Old thoughts of those nights making body heat and feeling her legs shake
She didn't want to let go
Mentally holding on like a boxer not wanting to make a clean break
Her emotional state making me feel guilty and less of a man
Walking away isn't easy nor thoughtful game plan
But the strongest ones tend to grieve and eventually they'll try to understand
Tears will turn to cries and then to wails
Broken hearts will be damaged but repairs will come
Once the next Superman prevails.
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 12:11 AM
So today we had a meeting where we found out that we lost BMW as a client. So the automobile industry is still reeling in this depression. So now I really have to step up efforts to look elsewhere. I need to get registered for school(wonder where I'll find the ends on short notice?) But anyway, I'm still here(not like much of you care anyway). Until next time....
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You have the charm, but they aren't with the desire.You do what is expected, such provisions would set souls on fire.You deserve the starting spot, but ballhoggers cause you to ride the bench.While the undeserving gets the spoils, you're stuck trying to survive in the trench.Trying to find the best situation, but it's really no use. Push away the oatmeal and become ammune to the abuse.Die hard fans admire the passion and use it as an inspiration for life.Watch as the championships fade and your soul ends up being on ice.No sense in trying to explain since the scapegoats in the end, pays the price.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 12:46 PM
Oh the torture. I mean really. I about to bring this AC up and plug this bitch in. Feels like a fucking sauna.
Anyway, we have made it through another week. Some interesting developments were noted. But as we continue on, I hope that everyone has a great weekend.
Fabolous new album Loso's Way drops on the 28th. Album is nuts. My favorite song is Pachanga. Once you hear it, hopefully you'll see why.
I would stay and type but it's too hot.
*wipes the swear off*
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:30 AM
I swear the weekend just goes by too quickly. I would have took the day off but the cow was acting like a female dog, so fuck her.
Well I may have more to post about later. I need to get ready..
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Isn't the least bit enjoyable. Would be nice to hear some comforting words, a nice back rub or something along those lines. But all I hear is constant nagging, rude tones and a bunch of blah blah.
Of course people will say find a new job, do this do that. You can apply to all the new jobs but you can't just not work. I have thought to see a professional, just to see if it was something wrong with me. Your place of employment shouldn't have you feeling stressed to the point of quitting w/o notice. Well I'm going to try to enjoy these last few minutes of my break.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 4:51 PM
Right now, all I need is an angelic voice that sings to the high heavens to put me to sleep. Like for the longest time, I wanted to hear a rendition of Jill Scott's "The Way" just sung in my ear. That's all. But it hasn't been fulfilled yet.
Well on to the post at hand, I feel as though I'm not a priority with certain things. Like I don't like to be a bother so I just stay to myself. So when I walk away, things feel a whole lot better than before. They are living their life and I'm doing just fine in mine.
P.S. - This Maxwell sounds like he never left the game.
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 2:19 PM
So Mase, we hear that MJ's passing made you want to come back. I spoke with the board and they say NO!!!! When we first saw you on the Only You remix video, you showed promise. Then you dropped Harlem World, sold some records and had folks #dancingandshit. You even went the distance of putting your crew on, Harlem World(Fail) and retired shortly after dropping album #2. Hell you said yourself you're from the hood doing deals with Magic. Then you did some speaking engagements, became a Pastor. All of a sudden, Nelly brings you back. Welcome Back? Breathe, Stretch, Shake...Then you were supposed to sign with G-Unit(What the fuck 50.) So now after leaving the game a second time(I saw the commercial adversting your church), now you wanna come back? I haven't heard the Best I Ever Had Remix but I heard the I Need A Girl Remix. No not the one where Diddy was crying for Jennifer Lopez to come back. I mean Trey Songz(YUUUUUP). I'm sure that you're doing well in Atlanta but seriously don't get back on the mic.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 12:17 PM
I was on BBM(Blackberry Messenger) when I saw one of my friends stats say R.I.P. Steve McNair. So then I head on over to ESPN.com to see what happened. The headline read that he was shot multiple times and a female accomplice was killed with a single shot to the head. Now the stories coming out are fishy but when he was playing in the NFL, he lead the model player/citizen role. Very tough on the field, strong arm, played through injuries. I know I hated when he and the Titans played the Ravens on many occasions. Then he came to Baltimore in the 2006 season and led the Ravens to a 13-3 record. Injuries forced him out soon after but as a fan of the league, you couldn't deny his playing ability. Said to see that he had to leave that way. Rest In Peace.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:56 AM
This blog is done in conjunction with the homie @Neo_Tha_One on Twitter. So happened that for a few weeks, we would be posting mad Jay-Z songs and just our thoughts on them. So I hit him up and asked him to list ten Jay-Z joints that are hot. He posted his list(I see with have some similarites) and here's mines in no particular order:
1. Regrets - One of my favorite songs off of Reasonable Doubt. The last verse is the one of the best he's spit in my memory.
2. Allure - The Neptunes did their thing on this beat. Jay-Z murdered the track. I like when on Fade To Black when he first heard the beat, how he knew that was gonna end up on Black Album.
3. Ignorant Shit - Isley Bros. sample that so many have used. He just put that stamp on it. So many quotables on this track. Yeah I'm usually what they whisper about/either what chick he with or his chip amount.
4. Money, Cash, Hoes feat. DMX - Swizz Beatz on the track. Hov and Dog killed it. Vol. 2 was a constant banger during my Senior Year in High School.
5. U Don't Know(Remix) - This one was tough. The original and remix are both nice but M.O.P. on the BP2 kinda sealed the deal. You dudes is cake, I keep two biscuits on the waist/Razor blades under the tongue, I will eat your face/Appetite for destruction, I am starvin today/Got a money hungry lawyer that'll eat the case
6. Rock Star Freestyle - This was dope as fuck!!!! I played this S. Carter Mixtape until I had to hide it. You can't be me/I'm a rock star/ya'll rhyming from the back of a cop's car/ya'll pointing out niggaz/like there they are.
7. Some People Hate - One of the reason that I can appreciate BP2. I guess it's just the penalty of leadership/I guess I'm what niggaz wanna be and shit/Or niggaz just bored, wanna be in shit/'Fore they get to rappin, start believin it
8. This Can't Be Life (feat. Beanie Sigel & Scarface) - song is deep on so many levels.
9. A Million & One Questions (Remix) - The original is like a minute and some change. This should've been a just a regular song.
10. Murder Murder Marcyville (feat. Beanie Sigel, Memphis Bleek) - Back when Jay-Z called rappers out.. Sigel and Bleek when in as well.
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Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 2:56 PM
So I was having a conversation with my "best" friend. So she was telling me how her friend used to talk bad about me. So she wouldn't say exactly what she said but I know she had some things to say. But one thing that boggles my mind about people like her: What makes them think that whatever looks, features, etc. will stay with them forever? Most likely no, in some cases the gods have giveth and taketh away from those that deserve it.
But everyone is a victim. Some can just take that tap on the chin a little better than others. The others? Well some just go about their lives and then you have those that take it to the extreme.
But back to the main point, if a person wants to ride me down or what not, that's on them. I think if a person wants to have reason to judge someone else, they need to look in the mirror and make sure that they are free of sin, sickness, medical disorders, etc.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 9:14 PM
Ok take two. So yesterday, I have a conversation with a young lady and the topic if preference came about. So she was saying how she never been with someone that wasn't black. She asked what my preference was and I said that I really didn't have one. Just love ladies all the same. When we are dealing with someone, we have to make sure...well scratch that last thought. Can't say that person is the one and most of those relationships go belly up. But back to my orginal point, no preferences needed. But I don't like smokers.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:26 PM
So tonight, was the B.E.T. Awards and since it was a few days after the untimely death of Michael Jackson, we thought that we were going to be in store for a great event. Well when it comes to B.E.T., you get what you pay for.
So I'm on twitter w/ my Kinfolk and we were just going in. When I look at the performances, I just question the direction that music has traveled in? Like the dudes that sing that Jerk song, they looking like they shucking and jiving along.
B.E.T. should be ashamed of themselves. If this was the way for them to honor Michael Jackson, then I want a refund and I saw it for free. VMA's are in September, so I know they will have something better. But really I know that we're supposed to embrace the new talent, but if they aren't holding up to the standards of some listeners then you can't force it on them. So back to the original topic, I was hoping that certain artists would realize that it wasn't about them and do some tributes to M.J. But we couldn't get that at all. Jamie Fox was meh as a host. He had a few funny liners (Telling Diddy don't stop dancing or he'll moonwalk all over his ass) I was mad that he did that flicked ass routine of the Beat It dance. Soulja Boy did Turn My Swag On (I don't support black culture because I don't like Soulja Boy) Ok and what is so perfect about Beyonce? If someone finds an answer to that please make me aware of it. Ne-Yo did his thing w/ Lady In My Life. Stacey.. I mean Keri Hilson had a performance. Trey Songz, Tyrese and Johnny Gill paid tribute to The O'Jays. Eddie Levert started had a classic moment of the night( #dancingandshit) Speaking of which, what was up with the censors? I know someone lost their job... Don C was allowed to introduce The O'Jays but Chris Brown couldn't perform. Why did they have to reenact Baby Boy? Ving Rhames said bitches and Keyshia Cole mouth dropped. Like Frankie or Nettie haven't said that word before. They kept showing clips of Tiny and Toya (Hoodrat Central will have that on lock. ) You know what... I'm not even gonna go into the rest. Especially that performance w/ Drake (well the ACL was torn) and Wayne/Young Money/Birdman.
Janet made a lot of people teary eyed when she was on stage. I know it was hard for her but she has support from millions and millions around the world.
I'm not going to spend time on this either but yeah it was a tumblr site floating around called OMG Black People. Just goes to show how some people are ignorant. But whatever, we mature ones are better than that. So we just let the fools be fools.
I'm hoping that when B.E.T. execs look at the replay and see what we saw, they'll be sure to just realized that biggest mistake they have made and folks will run rampant with this.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:33 AM
So early reports of this movie stated that this was a horrible sequel. Then when it was released, I'm hearing a different story. So I already knew that I was going to check this movie out regardless of what the critics said. So upon viewing it, I think it was a pretty good movie. I don't know what the proper way of doing a review. Am I supposed to look at from a person that had the toys viewpoint? The movie guru that feels like the sequel should have the plot, action, etc? I don't know. It's like I enjoyed the first one so I'm not all into the whole deep aspects of the movie. Kinda like when I watch wrestling now and now that I know the background story of what goes on, it changed the whole wrestling view. So I won't do that with movies. Just know that if it's action you want, it's in the movie. The budding relationship w/ Sam and Mikaela (I mean really a back and forth argument about whose gonna say I Love You first), the twin autobots Mudflaps and Skids (didn't see the big deal w/ those two. People just want to have a voice about something). Oh yeah and it's a lot of language and sexual undertones in that movie(Kids are gonna watch this and ask questions.) Also I geek'd hard at the Bad Boys II poster. Anyway, the movie was good so I didn't have any issues with it. So if you want to check it out, go ahead. If not, there are plenty of other movies that you can go see.
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Things between us became so strained
No more late night convos, no good morning texts
Like everything we've build is slowly going down the drain
Finding myself more alone with these four walls
Trying to find comfort and support but you have my heart
Still haunted by the image of your walking away as the tears fall
No college dropout but when it all falls down
The caution is built back up. No need for trust when the one you
love doesn't want to come around.
On the flipside the future presents past which is bright
Sorry that I damaged you on your plight
Led me out the blindness and gave me sight.
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I have reached a milestone of 200 blog post. Now I wanted to do something like go back and pick out my favorite ones but I'll save that for a later date. Now I was reading another blog that I follow on Myspace and she was going on and on about what changes happened to her during the course of the school year. But it's like if I had the resources that some other people had, I wouldn't be wasting it or just fucking it up. Hell, I hate getting up and going to work everyday, but I do it. I just sit in my cubicle and I'm on the phone most of the day. So imagine how i was disturbed at what I was reading. But hey good things always seems to happen to those least deserving. Maybe I'm just venting about nothing. *shrugs* But one day I'll see success. Then I'll wake up from that dream.
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There lies a message in this photo
The guy standing was trying to give these guys hope.
This place was eventually shut down because they were selling
guns as well as potato chips.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 9:45 PM
Depression - Psychiatry. a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason.
So I'll say for the past few weeks or so, that above definition has described me to a t. I could pin point it on the source of that feeling (Hello PDP) but I think it's deeper than that. Like I feel as if I want to just snap but I can't let my emotions get the best of me. I try to put on a smile but it doesn't work. So what's next? Relationship strains? Deeper withdrawal? Alcohol? This pain is digging deep and I don't see it ending anytime soon.
I know someone will read this and say: "Hey, you can talk to me." But what are you going to say? Tell me that everything will be alright? This that and the other? I mean you can say the same things over and over but it still doesn't mask the pain that I'm feeling right now. Plus from what I see, most people that I could consider talking to, have other things to deal with.
Normally, I would just write and write but I've hit a slight writer's block. And I'm most hard when it comes to myself in that department. Then it's like I ask for help or suggestions and people make it seem like you are bothering them. So that in turns makes me feel more guilty.
Don't be surprised if decide to just head out somewhere. I've been thinking about it and that plan will go into effect this summer.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 2:07 AM
And it starts.
“Bring a blonde/preferably with a phat ass/who can sing a song”
“Or your lack of aggression/pull ya skirt back down/grow a set man”
Rappers being too lazy on these tracks.
“this ain’t a number 1 record/this is practically assault with a deadly weapon”
Pop Radio won’t like this.
“your boys jeans too tight/ya colors too bright/ya voice too light”
Seems like the hipster phase caught on and people started rocking tight jeans with the shit still saggin - WTF!!!!
“this might need a verse from Jeezy(ayyyyyyeeeee)/I might send this to the mixtape weezy”
Seems like these two are holding down songs and such.. other than Gucci Mane and OJ the Juiceman *blinks twice at that name*
“you rappers singing too much/get back to rap/you T-Pain’n too much/I’m a multi-millionaire/so how is it I’m still the hardest nigga here/I don’t be in those project hallways/talking about how i’m in the project all day/that sounds stupid to me”
Like I said earlier, if you are more than three albums deep and still talking about being on the block hustling, it’s time to hang it up.
- End of transmission.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:49 PM
Why do I contain these feelings? Thoughts stay bottled up then released under pressure. So much goes on around me but I get that alone feeling. That eerie walking down the wrong road feeling. They say nice guys finish last and only assholes gets ass. Bruised a few egos, don’t really like to smile at people. Grew up no siblings, moved around a lot. Critical of my life so I’m hard on me. I want the best for the future, but I feel haunted by mistakes in the past. Look at some for inspiration but in the end I felt let down.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:42 AM
I'm like in a bad mood, which came out of nowhere. I was cool earlier laughing it up, having fun. Then I read a comment that someone said on a site that just completely fucked it up. Now I'm going through and analyzing those that I associate myself with. I try to engage with people socially just because I think I'm a fairly nice person, but
"And they don't really wanna see the good in me
Ain't satisfied until they see the fool in me" - Tre Williams
I could easily just give out chances and try, but then they show that true side of themselves which leads to the ties being cut. They won't lose sleep and neither will I. I just don't care and whoever reads this can take it for what it's worth.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:41 PM
So today since I had the day off, I decided to pay a visit to someone that I called a friend. Well it's deeper than that, more like family. Like in recent years, things has fallen off. So it's like I'm just alone back at Square One. I could go down the list of all the good, bad and ugly times that we've shared. But it wouldn't change how the situation is now. So if you have people that are close to you, make sure that you keep it that way.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 4:35 PM
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:13 AM
So pretty much... the past few days has been interesting to say the least. But we all need those days to keep life interesting.
I've been pretty much playing Godfather 2. Game has me tuned in. So if you see me disappear and I'm at home, chances are that's where I'm at.
We are all blessed in so many ways. We need to take advantage of the things that are presented to us. Cherish those that we have in our lives.
"I've been fucked over, left for dead, dissed and forgotten
Luck ran out, they hoped that I'd be gone, stiff and rotten
Y'all just piss on me, shit on me, spit on my grave (uh)
Talk about me, laugh behind my back but in my face
Y'all some well wishin (bitches), friendly actin envy hidin snakes
With your hands out for my money, man, how much can I take?" - Nas "Ether"
So while having this post still open I just watched 3 Chingy videos... don't ask why. Right Thurr was the beginning of this madness.
Ok and I just played Jay-Z's "Ignorant Shit" -- still hot to this day.
But yeah I have a tumblr now. So you may see random postings throughout the day.
Peace out now..
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 6:57 AM
Do people seem to text you only on holidays?
I mean they text you on New Years, Easter, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Sometimes 4th of July.
What about the other days in the year? You are so wrapped up in your life that you can't send a measly text saying hello? hi? go to hell?
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 10:04 PM
i lost my virginity to a drug dealer on the bathroom floor of a party - Secret Tweet
I forgive him and put up with his lies and unfaithfulness because the sex is sooooo damn good. Im addicted to him. - Secret Tweet
You all love to hear the story again and again...
You know that saying, "History repeats itself"? Well that happens a lot of times.
The person sweet talks you out of your panty drawz. You thinking that it's love and the person is just trying to get a nut.
We still have a few good people that is thinking with the right head. Too bad that it's always the rotten ones that spoil the bunch.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:18 AM
As much as I hate to do it, when you have an arguments it keeps things healthy. Shows that you can agree to disagree and that once it's over, you can revisit it and laugh on it.
Shows you also how strong that relationship is.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 7:57 AM
This entry was inspired by a number of things so I'm just going to jump right into it.
So people have their idea of who their dream guy/girl is to be. But the chances of that coming true are slim to none. You'll eventually fall for someone that is completely the opposite of that dream person that just sits in the back of you imagination.
Then if you find a person that you are truly attracted to but then in the long run discover that person is a jerk, then what? Are you going to stay with that person simply because he/she looks good? What if that person lacks intelligence? Long as that person is d.d.g., you don't have a thing to worry about. That person may just be using you because you are so wrapped up into them that you don't know that they are bleeding you dry.
Not trying to tell you how or who to be in a relationship with. Just that some people need to just common sense and stop thinking with their hormones.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:11 PM
RT: starandbucwild: Can we please focus on young people preparing for college instead of T.I. getting ready for Jail?
I agree with the above statement. I'm glad that T.I. is a inspiration in the community and that he's going to pay his debt to society.
But what about those that's been on that straight and narrow path, how come they don't receive any attention for the struggles they had to overcome to get to where they are?
I was listening to the radio and people were calling in to pour out support for T.I., but let's get the spotlight on others not in the mainstream. You can be a positive person(not saying at all that T.I. is negative) and still have an effect on your community. You can come from the projects and go to college. Just make yourself out to be better than the environment that you grew up in.
That's all I had to say..
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 5:23 PM
Well it's nothing really for me to talk about.
So I'm just moving one day at a time. Hopefully something will arise..
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:20 PM
So tonight(well yesterday) Lil Wayne's I Am Music Tour stopped through Baltimore. So pretty much if you follow me on Twitter, then you saw the updates. So I'm not gonna run through the whole show again, just touch on a few things.
Just go there and you'll see the updates.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 1:51 AM
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 6:44 AM
"i want it all,
that's why i strive for it,
dis me and you'll never hear a reply for it" - Drake
When you are aiming for the top, you'll always have someone or something trying to pull you back down.
You have brush that dirt off your shoulders.
Playing into their game, can be hazardous to your health.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 11:30 PM
Have you wondered when you are in public, what's everyone else story? We all see new people each day and they(just like us) have a means of being in a certain place at that time.
Just something to dwell upon.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:29 AM
So for those that watched The Wire, knows of the friendship between Avon Barksdale and Stringer Bell. How they built up the empire that pretty much controlled West Baltimore and the shit that eventually drove them apart.
So my thing is this: At what point do you put friendship aside to protect an investment that has so much involved?
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 8:28 AM
1. The O'Jays - Family Reunion: This song is older than me but it still gets people on the dance floor. This was played in Poetic Justice.
2. Earth, Wind, and Fire - Shining Star: Classic. This is my shit right here.
3. Grover Washington Jr. - Knucklehead: An instrumental track that sounds great. Makes me wish I had taken up an instrument while coming up.
4. William DeVaughn - Be Thankful For What You Got: This song has been sampled many times (e.g. Ludacris "Diamond In The Back") Song is great.
5. The Impressions - It's All Right: This track reminds me of the many old school songs about having a great time.
Posted by Mr. Gwumpeeh!® at 6:45 AM