Your Personal Ingredients

What makes you to be the individual that you are?

Is it the flashy personality that likes to spend time with children?

Or you could be the quiet person that stays in the back who secretly wants
to break out of his or her mold and showcase the talents that you possess.

Maybe you come from a long line of great cooks in your family.

You might follow behind your father and sticks to working hard and saving play for later.

Could it be that your grandparents instilled values to you that presents you as the loving and caring person that you've been groomed to be.

We all have many things within us that makes us the person that we are.

Some of it contains flaws but those are what makes us really stand out from others.

Things Fall Apart..

"we knew from the start that
things fall apart, intentions shatter" - Black Thought "You Got Me"

It's a known fact that relationships, no matter the type, falls apart. Family,
significant other, best friend - they all can end. Some for the best and others for
the worst.

I've been writing a letter to my father for almost three weeks now. I let another pair
of eyes view it and it brought tears to her face. I know there are plenty of others that
are in the same boat that I'm in. I'm looking to repair the bridge as to speak but it's
hard. When you sit there and think about how some of the most important phases of your
life and that main piece of your life wasn't there, it hits you right in the gut. Now
my father did come to my graduation, but I didn't see him. I got a text from my mother
saying that he was there. It would have been nice to just speak to him, even for a
brief moment. So this letter that I'm writing is just to let him know how I feel
about the "relationship" that we have or lack thereof. It's gonna be a tough road to
travel, but someone very close to me said that once I get it out, it will be well
worth it.

Now in the eyes of your significant other, maybe that crumbling state was known from
the start. But being the person that you are, you probably thought that you could
hang on and make it work. I know you that you want to be happy and the fact that
someone is willing to take a chance with you, isn't always for the best. Sometimes it
that unexpected person that you have already known that may turn out to be the best
one for you.

Best friend? Now this one can be a tough one. Now one of my best friends and I had a
talk today. She recently just gotten over a tough situation and we really hadn't spoke
that much in recent weeks. We've had many and many ups and downs. But I just miss the
fun times that we had and just hanging out. The two of us are in different stages
right now but I just hope that this won't be the end of the road as to speak.

So what have we learned? Again, relationships of any sorts can fall apart. It's just do
you feel like grabbing that glue to repair it?

Bored At Work Leads To This

What happened to those days where it was all good?
The days where we had laughs and rolled tight.
Now and days folk don't even speak
Makes you wonder if the friendship was ever all right.
Trips we took to Six Flags to the whole M&G Experience
Things went south Feb. 07, saw who was who and what was what
Played me for a fool and now I'm on the outside looking in

Try to speak just to see how you doing.
No response, just an empty feeling like
damn estranged family got me in the zone
On my X shit, I ain't trying to die alone
Or maybe when I listen to GCH and become blinded by the sun
Cause in reality I was blinded by son
Putting faith in friendships that don't exist
Wake me up from this dream cuz we're living a lie
Never disrespected you but that knife in the back hurts

Don't wish you any ills only success
Just peeping how the situation turned things sour
Neither one of us the blame
But I was away with the most shame

end of transmission.

Stuck Somewhere You Don't Want To Be.

You know how you go to work and you just sit there doing what you do? Well I've been at the current job for like 5 months. And it's slowly driving me insane to quote MJB. I was going to give a rundown on what I had to do but I quickly changed my mind. It's too much to remember and I'm not trying to go there. I'm just mad tired and ummm I need a new change of scenery fast.

Folks always wonder why I'm so quick to go out of town. I'd rather be someone else experiencing new things. It's always fun to learn and grow within yourself.

I plan on to continue traveling because this world has so much to offer.

A Few Things...

- I'm currently replaying the full version of Joe Budden's "Who". He str8 let loose on how he felt about the current state of hip hop. He reached back and brought things that you've might have forgotten about and it also makes you think. I'm glad that he mad mention of that VIBE bullshit.

- Bad service in a restaurant will make you not want to patron. Sitting in a well known restaurant for 15 minutes without being waited on is not good business. Then to have the server come to you and rush you to make your order isn't cool either. Then charging $1.19 for some cheese on your eggs is ridiculous.

- What I'm trying to figure out is, how can you possibly be homeless near a shopping mall? If you put two and two together, most malls don't even have residential areas. If they do then it's some really good houses. So when I ride past the areas where it's folks standing at the intersection with those I'm homeless please help me, I can't help to think that they are scam artists. I remember when I working at the movie theater, I saw a dude sitting on the bus with his sign and he got off and walked to his corner.

- This summer has been a really good one for movies. Ironman, Wall-E, Hancock are among the favorites. I am gonna watch Dark Knight probably today and this weekend I'm going to see Step Brothers.

Baltimore's Loss Is Heaven's Gain.

On the early morning of Monday, July 21, the City Of Baltimore lost one of our legends. Khia Edgerton a.k.a. DJ K-Swift died after a pool accident at her Northeast Baltimore home. Swift had been a fixture in the Baltimore club scene ever since the 90's. Once you heard that voice and her signature "I'll See You There Baby!", you knew the party was one that you had to attend. She had been a DJ for Baltimore's 92Q(WERQ) for 10 years and held down the 6pm-10pm spot along with Squirrel Wyde. Her death comes as shock to the entire city as she was well liked and she was also apart of the Murder Mami's Crew.

I have two distinct memories of meeting K-Swift. The first was when my cousin and I was heading to Baltimore's "The Tunnel"(Well it used to be called Trilogy's because of the three story club). So we were trying to decide on which club to hit up. So K-Swift was outside and she overheard us and so she was like "Ya'll need to hit the B-Spot(the lower level club) that spot is going to be jumping off." So we was like all right and paid the $10 to get in and had a great time. She was on the wheels and she knew how to get the club jumping off.

The second meeting with K-Swift was when I was working at Wal-Mart in Glen Burnie. At the time I was working in the Photo Lab and I was re-stocking some cameras. So as I'm headed back to the Lab, I see Swift looking around. So I greeted her and she was looking for (in her words) a big ass desk. So being that Wal-Mart policy was that you had to help the customers no matter what, I went and helped her find that "big ass desk". She found what she was looking for and thanked me. I would also see her at the clubs during Friday Night 92Q radio broadcasts (She wanted to cuss so bad...lol) but wherever she was she attracted the crowds.

We're going to miss Baltimore's only Female DJ and the hours between 6pm to 10pm will never be the same again. As I stated throughout the day, Baltimore will forever hold you down. We love you and we miss you.

It's times like these where you should really take the time to cherish your loved ones. Because
they could be gone in an instant and then you'll realize how silly those spats where. Tell them that you love them dearly. A hug and kiss won't hurt either.

Weekend's Over...

Another wonderful work week is approaching...

- My left eyes hurts a little.

- I just wish that I could head in to work unnoticed and just avoid all contact. But
knowing certain people, they'll create a scene.

- Great American Bash was an ok PPV.

- Didn't get to go to Artscape. So hopefully, I'll be able to go next year.

- I'm going to discuss Vibe's "Best Rapper Alive" Tourney in the upcoming weeks.