B.E.T. Awards/Twitter/Idiots...

So tonight, was the B.E.T. Awards and since it was a few days after the untimely death of Michael Jackson, we thought that we were going to be in store for a great event. Well when it comes to B.E.T., you get what you pay for.

So I'm on twitter w/ my Kinfolk and we were just going in. When I look at the performances, I just question the direction that music has traveled in? Like the dudes that sing that Jerk song, they looking like they shucking and jiving along.



B.E.T. should be ashamed of themselves. If this was the way for them to honor Michael Jackson, then I want a refund and I saw it for free. VMA's are in September, so I know they will have something better. But really I know that we're supposed to embrace the new talent, but if they aren't holding up to the standards of some listeners then you can't force it on them. So back to the original topic, I was hoping that certain artists would realize that it wasn't about them and do some tributes to M.J. But we couldn't get that at all. Jamie Fox was meh as a host. He had a few funny liners (Telling Diddy don't stop dancing or he'll moonwalk all over his ass) I was mad that he did that flicked ass routine of the Beat It dance. Soulja Boy did Turn My Swag On (I don't support black culture because I don't like Soulja Boy) Ok and what is so perfect about Beyonce? If someone finds an answer to that please make me aware of it. Ne-Yo did his thing w/ Lady In My Life. Stacey.. I mean Keri Hilson had a performance. Trey Songz, Tyrese and Johnny Gill paid tribute to The O'Jays. Eddie Levert started had a classic moment of the night( #dancingandshit) Speaking of which, what was up with the censors? I know someone lost their job... Don C was allowed to introduce The O'Jays but Chris Brown couldn't perform. Why did they have to reenact Baby Boy? Ving Rhames said bitches and Keyshia Cole mouth dropped. Like Frankie or Nettie haven't said that word before. They kept showing clips of Tiny and Toya (Hoodrat Central will have that on lock. ) You know what... I'm not even gonna go into the rest. Especially that performance w/ Drake (well the ACL was torn) and Wayne/Young Money/Birdman.

Janet made a lot of people teary eyed when she was on stage. I know it was hard for her but she has support from millions and millions around the world.

I'm not going to spend time on this either but yeah it was a tumblr site floating around called OMG Black People. Just goes to show how some people are ignorant. But whatever, we mature ones are better than that. So we just let the fools be fools.

I'm hoping that when B.E.T. execs look at the replay and see what we saw, they'll be sure to just realized that biggest mistake they have made and folks will run rampant with this.

Transformers 2

So early reports of this movie stated that this was a horrible sequel. Then when it was released, I'm hearing a different story. So I already knew that I was going to check this movie out regardless of what the critics said. So upon viewing it, I think it was a pretty good movie. I don't know what the proper way of doing a review. Am I supposed to look at from a person that had the toys viewpoint? The movie guru that feels like the sequel should have the plot, action, etc? I don't know. It's like I enjoyed the first one so I'm not all into the whole deep aspects of the movie. Kinda like when I watch wrestling now and now that I know the background story of what goes on, it changed the whole wrestling view. So I won't do that with movies. Just know that if it's action you want, it's in the movie. The budding relationship w/ Sam and Mikaela (I mean really a back and forth argument about whose gonna say I Love You first), the twin autobots Mudflaps and Skids (didn't see the big deal w/ those two. People just want to have a voice about something). Oh yeah and it's a lot of language and sexual undertones in that movie(Kids are gonna watch this and ask questions.) Also I geek'd hard at the Bad Boys II poster. Anyway, the movie was good so I didn't have any issues with it. So if you want to check it out, go ahead. If not, there are plenty of other movies that you can go see.

He Will Be Missed.

We've lost a true ICON.

He entertained and inspired many.

I may not have met him but he had me dancing.

Rest In Peace Michael.

Washington, Lincoln, Jefferson, Grant & Franklin
Names we'll go great lengths to obtain their affection
They play both sides of the coin
The long hustle, daily grind which few will follow
The fast, illegal way that most will join
We want those 5 in our inner surroundings
Which will lead to divide and decline
For the love of Washington, Lincoln, Jefferson, Grant & Franklin
They leave bodies on the sidewalks
Peter robbing Paul
Just when you think you have enough
That addiction kick in
And you're in it for the long haul
He may be portrayed as red but green flows through the veins of the devil
Rappers, Drug Dealers and even CEO's
Fall under the code that money is the root of all evil
We take what little change is earned and spend it on lotteries
With dreams of easy living
Houses, cars and clothes -- trying to live rich people fantasies
Instead of using money to help the future stay in the right frame
Out of our minds we spend it foolishly
Taking photos in our big ass chains
Good & Bad, Washington, Lincoln, Jefferson, Grant & Franklin provides a way
But when we past away, it won't travel with us.
Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away.

I've Had This Open For A Minute..

And I was clueless as to what to write. As usual so many things just flowing through my head. Then it's like I don't know where to start, so I'll just start typing away aimlessly.

So I'm sitting here on imeem listening to random songs from the old school.

Oh yeah, if you want something bad enough, go for it. Don't let anyone stand in your way of your dreams.

Things between us became so strained
No more late night convos, no good morning texts
Like everything we've build is slowly going down the drain
Finding myself more alone with these four walls
Trying to find comfort and support but you have my heart
Still haunted by the image of your walking away as the tears fall
No college dropout but when it all falls down
The caution is built back up. No need for trust when the one you
love doesn't want to come around.
On the flipside the future presents past which is bright
Sorry that I damaged you on your plight
Led me out the blindness and gave me sight.

Turn That Knife Clockwise

Back Stabbers - The OJays

So right now as I'm typing this, the song that you hear in the background is currently playing. I may have spoke on this but the situation keeps coming back up up. Then I'm reminded of June 2007 -- No I won't get into it but 2007 as a whole was a fucking train wreck. Then folks wonder why people are distant towards them. It's because of shit like this. My thing is this, if you knew something and you were a fucking friend, WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH!!! No one wanted to say anything but it was a big fucking joke. Ha ha ha yeah joke was on me. So I learned a lesson that I still carry with me right now. And that's not to trust folks as far as you can throw. I see that a lot you have those you're most comfortable with, so yeah keep those cliques. Trying to be nice to all parties don't work. You have someone that doesn't like this person, she wanna fuck him, he slept with her while her man was at work thinking he has a great woman. Shit is ridiculous.

I can't control what people say about me. Say whatever you want. Most of you hung out with me and I have photos posted so it won't bother me. You can't get folks to just come out and say hey we're going to make you the laughing stock of all our inside jokes and blah blah while smiling in your face telling you that you're mad cool.

Maybe that's why I push myself away from others. Since I'm used to folks being two-faced like the world revolves around them. Just heed these words from DMX:

Ain't nothing changed, I'm the same as before When opportunity knocked I just answered the door Criminal at heart even though I don't show itI was always a winner but I just didn't know it

Number 200.

I have reached a milestone of 200 blog post. Now I wanted to do something like go back and pick out my favorite ones but I'll save that for a later date. Now I was reading another blog that I follow on Myspace and she was going on and on about what changes happened to her during the course of the school year. But it's like if I had the resources that some other people had, I wouldn't be wasting it or just fucking it up. Hell, I hate getting up and going to work everyday, but I do it. I just sit in my cubicle and I'm on the phone most of the day. So imagine how i was disturbed at what I was reading. But hey good things always seems to happen to those least deserving. Maybe I'm just venting about nothing. *shrugs* But one day I'll see success. Then I'll wake up from that dream.

Some Photos From Today

Back Alleyway



There lies a message in this photo



Another alleyway



The guy standing was trying to give these guys hope.



This place was eventually shut down because they were selling
guns as well as potato chips.

2am.. Where Do I Begin?

Depression - Psychiatry. a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason.

So I'll say for the past few weeks or so, that above definition has described me to a t. I could pin point it on the source of that feeling (Hello PDP) but I think it's deeper than that. Like I feel as if I want to just snap but I can't let my emotions get the best of me. I try to put on a smile but it doesn't work. So what's next? Relationship strains? Deeper withdrawal? Alcohol? This pain is digging deep and I don't see it ending anytime soon.

I know someone will read this and say: "Hey, you can talk to me." But what are you going to say? Tell me that everything will be alright? This that and the other? I mean you can say the same things over and over but it still doesn't mask the pain that I'm feeling right now. Plus from what I see, most people that I could consider talking to, have other things to deal with.

Normally, I would just write and write but I've hit a slight writer's block. And I'm most hard when it comes to myself in that department. Then it's like I ask for help or suggestions and people make it seem like you are bothering them. So that in turns makes me feel more guilty.

*deep breath*

Don't be surprised if decide to just head out somewhere. I've been thinking about it and that plan will go into effect this summer.

It's Photo Time Again!!!

My Thoughts...Of Course You Won't Read It

“Only rapper to re-write history without a pen/No I.D. on the track/let the story begin.”

And it starts.

“Bring a blonde/preferably with a phat ass/who can sing a song”

Beyonce maybe?

“Or your lack of aggression/pull ya skirt back down/grow a set man”

Rappers being too lazy on these tracks.

“this ain’t a number 1 record/this is practically assault with a deadly weapon”

Pop Radio won’t like this.

“your boys jeans too tight/ya colors too bright/ya voice too light”

Seems like the hipster phase caught on and people started rocking tight jeans with the shit still saggin - WTF!!!!

“this might need a verse from Jeezy(ayyyyyyeeeee)/I might send this to the mixtape weezy”

Seems like these two are holding down songs and such.. other than Gucci Mane and OJ the Juiceman *blinks twice at that name*

“you rappers singing too much/get back to rap/you T-Pain’n too much/I’m a multi-millionaire/so how is it I’m still the hardest nigga here/I don’t be in those project hallways/talking about how i’m in the project all day/that sounds stupid to me”

Like I said earlier, if you are more than three albums deep and still talking about being on the block hustling, it’s time to hang it up.

- End of transmission.